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Post by CaveBearOG on Dec 27, 2019 6:25:12 GMT -5
Will this board even make it thru the whole year??
What are your 2020 plans, hopes, dreams??
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Post by floater on Dec 27, 2019 10:23:46 GMT -5
Plans- Re-model house and finish barn. Build a shop and a garage.
Hopes- Connect with some good musicians and start gigging again.
Dreams- Kinky sex with the wife!
As for this board... if we could upload pictures and videos directly from our phones/devices it would make things way more interesting.
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Post by andrewk1988 on Dec 27, 2019 11:48:19 GMT -5
Continue to build up my property down south, kill an elk later this year, get my golf handicap in single digits, successfully avoid getting my old lady pregnant again.
For the board, I want there to be zero times I see the 'new' indicator over the pro wrestling section.
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Post by HumanAgent on Dec 27, 2019 12:05:29 GMT -5
I hope to start posting in the professional wrestling forum alot more in 2020!
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Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2019 23:07:30 GMT -5
Plans: Work too much, continue building our new house, try to bone my wife a bunch, try to raise good kids
Hopes: my wife lets me stick my wiener in her a bunch of times, I don’t have a mental breakdown, my kids don’t turn in to shitheads.
We are going to sell our house and move in to our to be finished guest house in May. I want to live on site while I finish up building our main house. We will be in 675 square feet, 1 bedroom, 1 bath, small kitchen for 8-12 months. It’s going to be a real test of our patience.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2019 23:09:14 GMT -5
Bear... what are the odds you are still kicking in 2021? You doing okay mentally/physically?
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Post by CaveBearOG on Dec 28, 2019 11:29:40 GMT -5
Bear... what are the odds you are still kicking in 2021? You doing okay mentally/physically? Physically I feel a great deal better. Mentally, some dark days but its improving. As far odds go that I see 2021?? I'd say they greatly improved since this heart surgery. It was very successful and now I basically have a 25 year olds heart and I'm just now starting to notice it. Things like stairs that used to cause me to get winded I have no problems with. I feel strong, eat better, watch my blood sugars, take my meds......new bod, new mind set.....but all that goes to piss if I cant keep off the dorugs........ -147 I stay alive this year.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 28, 2019 22:46:20 GMT -5
Bear... what are the odds you are still kicking in 2021? You doing okay mentally/physically? Physically I feel a great deal better. Mentally, some dark days but its improving. As far odds go that I see 2021?? I'd say they greatly improved since this heart surgery. It was very successful and now I basically have a 25 year olds heart and I'm just now starting to notice it. Things like stairs that used to cause me to get winded I have no problems with. I feel strong, eat better, watch my blood sugars, take my meds......new bod, new mind set.....but all that goes to piss if I cant keep off the dorugs........ -147 I stay alive this year. What triggers you slipping and doing drugs? Boredom, anxiety, depression, self sabotage...?
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Post by CaveBearOG on Dec 29, 2019 5:09:30 GMT -5
Physically I feel a great deal better. Mentally, some dark days but its improving. As far odds go that I see 2021?? I'd say they greatly improved since this heart surgery. It was very successful and now I basically have a 25 year olds heart and I'm just now starting to notice it. Things like stairs that used to cause me to get winded I have no problems with. I feel strong, eat better, watch my blood sugars, take my meds......new bod, new mind set.....but all that goes to piss if I cant keep off the dorugs........ -147 I stay alive this year. What triggers you slipping and doing drugs? Boredom, anxiety, depression, self sabotage...? "Boredom, anxiety, depression, self sabotage".....All the above to be honest. I go to meetings for a few weeks then get bored and stop going. I mean I go to 4-6 meetings /week....and they do help and I have a great group of AA friends...I shouldnt say "AA" friends, they are my friends, but something happens, I just get bored....then depression slips in and I know that with just a little meth I'll feel infinitely better. I know for a fact I have ADHD, no doubt about it. The issue is the VA knows I'm a meth addict and will not prescribe me ADHD medications because of the potential of abuse.....and theyre not wrong, I more than likely would abuse them, "one is to many and a thousand is never enough". ADHD meds are essentially methamphetamine salts, legal crystal meth, so they arent going to give them to me.....ever. So I'm kinda stuck, but honestly, thats another excuse, there are millions of sober people across this planet with ADHD who live productive lives, sober lives. I just need to find some semblance of balance in my life.....I'm working on it, albeit slowly. I have a couple positive things coming up in 4-6 weeks that will help me find that balance.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 29, 2019 10:53:32 GMT -5
The boredom thing can be solved by getting a job. Once you are working the other issues will go away. I truly believe the absence of employment is a huge factor in people’s failure in life. The sense of accomplishment, achievement, self worth and taking away down time is so helpful
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Post by CaveBearOG on Dec 29, 2019 18:01:38 GMT -5
The boredom thing can be solved by getting a job. Once you are working the other issues will go away. I truly believe the absence of employment is a huge factor in people’s failure in life. The sense of accomplishment, achievement, self worth and taking away down time is so helpful We've had this discussion before Kyle and we dont fully agree....nor will we. While I agree, a job "can" be helpful, its not the end-all/be-all as you wanna make it out to be as you've clearly stated by your statements "Once you are working the other issues will go away" and "I truly believe the absence of employment is a huge factor in peoples failure in life." "Once you are working the other issues will go away" Oh rly?? Damn, you've just solved the mental health crisis...good on you!!!!! "I truly believe the absence of employment is a huge factor in peoples failure in life." If financial success is your goal, good for you. Its not for me. I've made over $80,000/year, single, shooting dope everyday....where did that get me?? I've also lived off of $1200/month VA disability and been happy as a pig in shit??? Define employment relative to "peoples failure in life" Are 20 year Burger King employees failures??
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Post by HumanAgent on Dec 29, 2019 18:13:45 GMT -5
I think he means it would occupy so much if your time and mind. He may be right but then again if you get a job with other drug users, that would hurt as well.
The more time you spend occuping your mind with other stuff other than drugs, the less you'll be thinking about getting high. I din think he meant mental illness.
Good luck though Bear!
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Post by andrewk1988 on Dec 29, 2019 22:22:34 GMT -5
Employment is kinda like putting a potentially infected bandaid on the wound that is addiction/mental health. I've had friends over the years that I've helped get jobs and thought that should do it.
In reality, they meet new users in some cases, have more money to further their habit, and eventually fall completely back off the employment wagon and go back to isolation/addiction/whatever.
Thats my experience. Telling people to toughen up and get a job just isn't the answer, even though it feels like it to healthy people.
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Post by daywork on Dec 29, 2019 22:47:42 GMT -5
Bear, I would say get a dog. Spending time with it, training it. I think that could be something very good for you. But I don't know your living situation (if you can have dogs), not sure if you have the money to feed it and or vet bills. Or if you would be willing for a long term commitment to raise a dog.
I don't know, you may not even like dogs. I'm just thinking out loud lol.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2019 0:27:09 GMT -5
If you have a job you will be accountable for your time, be drug tested, be busy and not able to sit on your ass bored all day, have a sense of accomplishment, be a contributing member of society, and you will be financially more comfortable.
You don’t want to get a job because you are too far out of it. The thought of getting up every day, being responsible for something and being accountable for your decisions scares you. You are a product of a system with too many safety nets and too many ways to survive on other people’s success. You have not had to provide for yourself in 15 years and you have lost the confidence that allows you to believe in your capabilities.
I don’t know you but I would be willing to guess if you got a job that you were good at your happiness would improve greatly and you would be much less likely to be self destructive. I know you don’t agree but getting a job is about the only thing you haven’t tried in the last decade to clean up your life, so why not try it?
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Post by Premier on Jan 5, 2020 1:32:56 GMT -5
Getting a divorce.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 5, 2020 3:13:05 GMT -5
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Post by CaveBearOG on Jan 5, 2020 7:01:27 GMT -5
If you have a job you will be accountable for your time, be drug tested, be busy and not able to sit on your ass bored all day, have a sense of accomplishment, be a contributing member of society, and you will be financially more comfortable. You don’t want to get a job because you are too far out of it. The thought of getting up every day, being responsible for something and being accountable for your decisions scares you. You are a product of a system with too many safety nets and too many ways to survive on other people’s success. You have not had to provide for yourself in 15 years and you have lost the confidence that allows you to believe in your capabilities. I don’t know you but I would be willing to guess if you got a job that you were good at your happiness would improve greatly and you would be much less likely to be self destructive. I know you don’t agree but getting a job is about the only thing you haven’t tried in the last decade to clean up your life, so why not try it? I was always taught not to speak on topics i know nothing about because you'll end up looking like a dumbass..........well kyle, youre a dumbass....you know absolutely nothing about addiction...i mean nothing....dumbass!!!
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Post by Deleted on Jan 5, 2020 11:39:29 GMT -5
If you have a job you will be accountable for your time, be drug tested, be busy and not able to sit on your ass bored all day, have a sense of accomplishment, be a contributing member of society, and you will be financially more comfortable. You don’t want to get a job because you are too far out of it. The thought of getting up every day, being responsible for something and being accountable for your decisions scares you. You are a product of a system with too many safety nets and too many ways to survive on other people’s success. You have not had to provide for yourself in 15 years and you have lost the confidence that allows you to believe in your capabilities. I don’t know you but I would be willing to guess if you got a job that you were good at your happiness would improve greatly and you would be much less likely to be self destructive. I know you don’t agree but getting a job is about the only thing you haven’t tried in the last decade to clean up your life, so why not try it? I was always taught not to speak on topics i know nothing about because you'll end up looking like a dumbass..........well kyle, youre a dumbass....you know absolutely nothing about addiction...i mean nothing....dumbass!!! True, I don’t know what it’s like to not be strong enough to make good decisions, be self reliant and contribute to society. However I CHOSE to never do a single drug, not have sex until my wedding night, never drink and drive, never be goaded in to a fight, and never be in trouble with the law. I also CHOSE to graduate high school with a 4.0, go to college and get an MBA, open my own business and work 70-80 hours a week. You make your own fate and falling back on using addiction as an excuse for failure is weak. If you want to be better there is plenty of ways to choose to make that happen. All of the decisions I speak about choosing to make sucked at the time (imagine going through high school not ever drinking, smoking weed and having to defend why you don’t want to have sex).... however I knew I didn’t want to fuck up so I made my fate and wasn’t going to allow anything to sidetrack it. I feel bad that you are an addict and agree that you are going to have a very difficult time changing, but don’t tell me you know how to do it and I don’t, because clearly based on your history you haven’t the slightest clue how to fix yourself.
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Post by slaytan on Jan 5, 2020 13:47:21 GMT -5
I was always taught not to speak on topics i know nothing about because you'll end up looking like a dumbass..........well kyle, youre a dumbass....you know absolutely nothing about addiction...i mean nothing....dumbass!!! True, I don’t know what it’s like to not be strong enough to make good decisions, be self reliant and contribute to society. However I CHOSE to never do a single drug, not have sex until my wedding night, never drink and drive, never be goaded in to a fight, and never be in trouble with the law. I also CHOSE to graduate high school with a 4.0, go to college and get an MBA, open my own business and work 70-80 hours a week. You make your own fate and falling back on using addiction as an excuse for failure is weak. If you want to be better there is plenty of ways to choose to make that happen. All of the decisions I speak about choosing to make sucked at the time (imagine going through high school not ever drinking, smoking weed and having to defend why you don’t want to have sex).... however I knew I didn’t want to fuck up so I made my fate and wasn’t going to allow anything to sidetrack it. I feel bad that you are an addict and agree that you are going to have a very difficult time changing, but don’t tell me you know how to do it and I don’t, because clearly based on your history you haven’t the slightest clue how to fix yourself. You are the fucking man
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Post by HumanAgent on Jan 5, 2020 17:32:45 GMT -5
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Post by CaveBearOG on Jan 5, 2020 22:31:56 GMT -5
Kyle....you know more about addiction than 100 years of research and thousands of doctors combined.......annnnnd if thats true I got a bridge bitch....lmao
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Post by Deleted on Jan 6, 2020 1:11:53 GMT -5
Kyle....you know more about addiction than 100 years of research and thousands of doctors combined.......annnnnd if thats true I got a bridge bitch....lmao So if you know so much how come you have gone nowhere in 15 years? I’m not saying I know anything, but what you have done has wasted hundreds of thousands of taxpayer dollars and gotten you nowhere. Maybe doing the opposite of your enlightened method is the right answer?
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Post by CaveBearOG on Jan 6, 2020 5:48:02 GMT -5
Kyle....you know more about addiction than 100 years of research and thousands of doctors combined.......annnnnd if thats true I got a bridge bitch....lmao So if you know so much how come you have gone nowhere in 15 years? I’m not saying I know anything, but what you have done has wasted hundreds of thousands of taxpayer dollars and gotten you nowhere. Maybe doing the opposite of your enlightened method is the right answer? u r a straight ego filled moron....lmao
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Post by Deleted on Jan 6, 2020 10:10:54 GMT -5
So if you know so much how come you have gone nowhere in 15 years? I’m not saying I know anything, but what you have done has wasted hundreds of thousands of taxpayer dollars and gotten you nowhere. Maybe doing the opposite of your enlightened method is the right answer? u r a straight ego filled moron....lmao Listen, you know where I stand on this as we have gone though this a dozen times over the last decade. I have never once questioned your character as a person, however I completely believe you are addicted to your routine and your habits more than you are any substance. The thought of going to work 5 days a week and being accountable for your time and responsible for yourself with no safety nets probably scares you more than dying does. You can attack the problem however you choose, but don't tell me you have it figured out and I don't... because clearly you haven't the slightest clue how to fix your problems. I have always tried to encourage your sobriety throughout the years and other than seeing someone spending 50 lifetimes worth of taxpayers hard earned money, I don't have any issues with you. However if you really want to get better and have a chance at not dying in a gutter somewhere from an OD you probably should at least admit to yourself that you may not know what is best for you in your current state of mind. Maybe a doctor does, maybe your parents do, maybe some stranger telling you to do the opposite of what you have been doing does.... who knows, but can you honestly say you have done anything in the last 15 years that has had any long term success at making you better?
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Post by CaveBearOG on Jan 20, 2020 16:22:51 GMT -5
u r a straight ego filled moron....lmao Listen, you know where I stand on this as we have gone though this a dozen times over the last decade. I have never once questioned your character as a person, however I completely believe you are addicted to your routine and your habits more than you are any substance. The thought of going to work 5 days a week and being accountable for your time and responsible for yourself with no safety nets probably scares you more than dying does. You can attack the problem however you choose, but don't tell me you have it figured out and I don't... because clearly you haven't the slightest clue how to fix your problems. I have always tried to encourage your sobriety throughout the years and other than seeing someone spending 50 lifetimes worth of taxpayers hard earned money, I don't have any issues with you. However if you really want to get better and have a chance at not dying in a gutter somewhere from an OD you probably should at least admit to yourself that you may not know what is best for you in your current state of mind. Maybe a doctor does, maybe your parents do, maybe some stranger telling you to do the opposite of what you have been doing does.... who knows, but can you honestly say you have done anything in the last 15 years that has had any long term success at making you better? Somehow i missed this uneducated drivel...let me ask one question....k snookums??? If, as your dumbass has decided, a job, any job, would help me be "accountable and fix my addictions and MH"....hows come I was able to work as an independent contractor for DuPont as a floor installer for several years AND, dumbass kyle, how did I do that all the while banging 10 bags of heroin a day, everyday, all day and put in 12-15 hour a day workdays?? That alone proves your utter uneducated stupidity........God forbid one of your spawn ever has mh or addiction problems......jeezus, i'm sure youd just wash your hands of them and disown them.......that my nig is truly pathetic.......yous a dumb bitch.....lmao!!!
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Post by vegeta420z on Jan 21, 2020 2:20:33 GMT -5
Listen, you know where I stand on this as we have gone though this a dozen times over the last decade. I have never once questioned your character as a person, however I completely believe you are addicted to your routine and your habits more than you are any substance. The thought of going to work 5 days a week and being accountable for your time and responsible for yourself with no safety nets probably scares you more than dying does. You can attack the problem however you choose, but don't tell me you have it figured out and I don't... because clearly you haven't the slightest clue how to fix your problems. I have always tried to encourage your sobriety throughout the years and other than seeing someone spending 50 lifetimes worth of taxpayers hard earned money, I don't have any issues with you. However if you really want to get better and have a chance at not dying in a gutter somewhere from an OD you probably should at least admit to yourself that you may not know what is best for you in your current state of mind. Maybe a doctor does, maybe your parents do, maybe some stranger telling you to do the opposite of what you have been doing does.... who knows, but can you honestly say you have done anything in the last 15 years that has had any long term success at making you better? Somehow i missed this uneducated drivel...let me ask one question....k snookums??? If, as your dumbass has decided, a job, any job, would help me be "accountable and fix my addictions and MH"....hows come I was able to work as an independent contractor for DuPont as a floor installer for several years AND, dumbass kyle, how did I do that all the while banging 10 bags of heroin a day, everyday, all day and put in 12-15 hour a day workdays?? That alone proves your utter uneducated stupidity........God forbid one of your spawn ever has mh or addiction problems......jeezus, i'm sure youd just wash your hands of them and disown them.......that my nig is truly pathetic.......yous a dumb bitch.....lmao!!! Uuuuum do we still do post of the year? Well if we do I'd like to nominate this one😁👍👍
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Post by CaveBearOG on Jan 22, 2020 0:06:59 GMT -5
Somehow i missed this uneducated drivel...let me ask one question....k snookums??? If, as your dumbass has decided, a job, any job, would help me be "accountable and fix my addictions and MH"....hows come I was able to work as an independent contractor for DuPont as a floor installer for several years AND, dumbass kyle, how did I do that all the while banging 10 bags of heroin a day, everyday, all day and put in 12-15 hour a day workdays?? That alone proves your utter uneducated stupidity........God forbid one of your spawn ever has mh or addiction problems......jeezus, i'm sure youd just wash your hands of them and disown them.......that my nig is truly pathetic.......yous a dumb bitch.....lmao!!! Uuuuum do we still do post of the year? Well if we do I'd like to nominate this one😁👍👍 Thank you kind sir....thank you very much....lol.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 24, 2020 2:18:11 GMT -5
Listen, you know where I stand on this as we have gone though this a dozen times over the last decade. I have never once questioned your character as a person, however I completely believe you are addicted to your routine and your habits more than you are any substance. The thought of going to work 5 days a week and being accountable for your time and responsible for yourself with no safety nets probably scares you more than dying does. You can attack the problem however you choose, but don't tell me you have it figured out and I don't... because clearly you haven't the slightest clue how to fix your problems. I have always tried to encourage your sobriety throughout the years and other than seeing someone spending 50 lifetimes worth of taxpayers hard earned money, I don't have any issues with you. However if you really want to get better and have a chance at not dying in a gutter somewhere from an OD you probably should at least admit to yourself that you may not know what is best for you in your current state of mind. Maybe a doctor does, maybe your parents do, maybe some stranger telling you to do the opposite of what you have been doing does.... who knows, but can you honestly say you have done anything in the last 15 years that has had any long term success at making you better? Somehow i missed this uneducated drivel...let me ask one question....k snookums??? If, as your dumbass has decided, a job, any job, would help me be "accountable and fix my addictions and MH"....hows come I was able to work as an independent contractor for DuPont as a floor installer for several years AND, dumbass kyle, how did I do that all the while banging 10 bags of heroin a day, everyday, all day and put in 12-15 hour a day workdays?? That alone proves your utter uneducated stupidity........God forbid one of your spawn ever has mh or addiction problems......jeezus, i'm sure youd just wash your hands of them and disown them.......that my nig is truly pathetic.......yous a dumb bitch.....lmao!!! You are missing the point completely. Just go on sucking off the taxpayers teat and kidding yourself that the next stab at rehab is going to work. Your way of thinking has guaranteed a lifetime of misery and death at a young age. You have taken your 1 chance at living in this planet and thrown it in the garbage... and that is about the saddest thing you can have happen
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Post by cybergod on Feb 13, 2020 19:05:14 GMT -5
Will this board even make it thru the whole year?? No.
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